Saturday, January 1, 2011

Getting Brave

I managed to talk myself into going back to the doctor's office last week.  I was really nervous about getting the blood work.  I don't mind the needles or anything, I feared the results.  I have not been good about my sugar intake and am quite embarrassed to admit my lack of self-control.  Fortunately the medicines that I'm on are doing their jobs because my A1C has actually fallen quite a bit in the 9 months since I was last tested.  I went from a 10.6, a horrendously high number, to a 6.4.  My doctor feels this is acceptable enough that I don't need to up my doses or take any additional meds.  I would love to get this number lower and be able to ween myself down off my meds this year.
Santa brought a Kinect for Christmas and I'm really excited about how much fun we're having with the basic game that was included.  I plan to purchase The Biggest Loser for Kinect soon and really start trying to lose some of the massive amount of weight I've gained since becoming a stay at home mom.
I would love to hear from women like myself struggling with diabetes and exercise motivation!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Mountain Dew

Yes, my name is Heidi and I am Dewaholic. It seems so silly yet I crave it beyond words.  My sugar is sky high, when it even gets close to normal I feel awful because my body is so used to high levels. I KNOW it's terrible for me but when I take that first swallow it's like heaven, I just can't help it. Ok, so maybe I can help, I just haven't been able to force my will power into over drive yet.

 I'm embarrassed when I go to my doctor's appointment.  I even skipped the last one because I didn't want to know what my A1C levels were.  It's like a real true addiction.  Hiding from family and doctors the depth of my own self destruction.  I'm not going to lie and say that I am going to quit tomorrow.  I will say that this blog is what I've come up with for my therapy.  I've never blogged before.  Recently I've been entering contests and giveaways.  So many want you to google friend them to enter the contest, so I decided to create a blog.  I had no idea what I was going to do until I was creating it.  Deciding to talk about my addiction just seems the right thing to do.
If anyone out there has similar addictions or struggles, please do share with me.  I will try my best not to enable you if you don't enable me :D